*tear*

i miss my youth...

before school:




after school:





saturday morning:



just for fun:





more later.
i feel kinda old tho

quick update:

i'm @ work so i'll make this brief...

for the 3rd or 4th time (i have yet to get actual confirmation, and i think i blocked it out of my own mind) but someone (a crackhead) broke into my car.
stealing what you may ask?
that baby shower gift for a friend that i ordered offline and paid a million frickin dollars for s&h (well it at least felt that way)

*sigh*

so that was more money for a window that i had previously replaced.
i swear those kind men down @ jack's auto glass are beginning to know me by face,
or at least by car model.

and now i have to endure the stress and side eye @ work
because i missed yesterday
due to the above reasons.

like having someone break in your car
rifle through your things
steal from you
and leave you car open for the cats and homeless to sleep in
isn't more than enough of a reason to miss a day from work.
or, that coupled with the fact that the window glass place didnt even GET to my car until about 11:30 am.

...when i found the car @ 7 am.

ah well.

so...i'm moving.
i'm trying to have something set up by jan/feb.

cause, even though they're crackheads everywhere.
at least i might not have grown up with them.

viva la change of surroundings!

sam cooke/obama said it best

a change is gonna come people.

and i figure that this said change should affect me too.


so,

i'm revamping some things...

blog, life, friends....etc

change. it's inevitable.


soon come.

*cue the dancing winkies*

*i couldn't find the one with the ACTUAL winkies. but you get the idea*

so...

how does it feel to be black and in america?
not saying that the wounds are completely healed,
but at least we replaced it with clean gauze and some neosporin.
the healing process has begun.

and before any of you who personally know me say anything.
no, i did not and do not vote, for sincere reasons.
for me, this isn't about politics
it's just about an intelligent (stress on the word intelligent. i'm looking at you rev. al), strong man in office that just so happens to look like me.

that in itself is amazing.

i mean,
my grandparents were the children of sharecroppers.
my grandfather has worked his entire life aware of the fact that he was smarter and more qualified than his superiors,
but paid significantly less.
my grandmother, born and raised in the rural south
(i mean who besides my family and like 2 others know where summerton s.c is? yeah i didnt think so)
has lived through the depression,
segregation/jim crow and the civil rights movement,
constantly being told that she was worth next to nothing
constantly being told that she would never be more than what she already was.
they both lived to see a beautiful brown skinned man become the next president.

*sigh*

i can breathe now.



but,
with this ginormous feat comes a deep responsibility.
black people
this is our time to stand up and act like we actually collectively have some sense.
we have NO CHOICE/NO EXCUSE now.
all that,
"the white man is holding me down" has to stop,
years and years of cop-outs, and constantly uttering the words "i can't because..." are over.
there is no need for it now.
the ultimate position of power is and will be for the next 4 years, occupied by a black man.
that is so huge that it should force every single black person in america to straighten up and at least attempt to fly right.

we as a people need to realize our worth and abilities
and use the resources that will soon become readily available to their individual fullest.

this, more than ever, is OUR time.
OUR time to reclaim what was stolen, lost and ridiculed into obscurity.
OUR time to say and actually believe that we can be whatever we want.
OUR time to look at our children and see them have the same choices, and oppurtunites as the others.

*sigh*

i feel like i'm rambling and i'm sorry.
but,
i'm just hype
and hopeful.



damn straight.

randomness...

-smells like someone is cooking with lawry's but i sincerely hope not,
since we only have a microwave in there.
can you imagine if they randomly sprinkle seasoned salt on things.

-my new main goal in life (besides writing the next great american novel and marrying shia labeouf) is to become a contestant on don't forget the lyrics.
...seriously.
who wants to be on my team??

-this is frickin hilarious....


-things are going to be really random for awhile. especially since i'm trying to (finally!) write my book. it'll be amazing if i get anything else accomplished in the month of october.

-my grandparents 60th wedding anniversary party is this saturday coming. everytime i tell someone they immediately are amazed that they've lasted this long. i am too... in a way. but just like bobby and whitney,

i'll put pics of the partyup when i get them.

i'm gonna look nice....lol.