i need a break

for real.

i dont know if its another vacation
or just some time away.

yeah,
i just need some time away from it all.
and everyone.
all i wanna do is sit
and not be annoyed by all the same shit that's been annoying me for awhile.

man who knows.

i just know that i'm exhausted
i'm just getting home
and i didnt really have a good time.
all i know is that as a celebration for someone's birthday (who consequently stood me up for mine. so the real question is, wtf was i even doing there in the first place right? i mean seriously, we kinda halfway made plans for my day and then what... i go to change my clothes, call and then no answer. i didnt even know we still DID that in 08.)
i watched people get fuckin smashed
i almost saw a white dude get trashed
and i ended up being extremely angry at the lack of respect that i seem to have with the homies.

and do you know what i couldve been doing instead?
what i normally do of course
with someone that makes me laugh
and possibly a quick roll in the hay??

*sigh*

this is some bullshit.
i'm off to get 4 hours of sleep now.

bastards...